Monday, October 15, 2012

Coming to Terms

Since I'm an honest person, I feel like I need to admit something. I don't take my PCOS very seriously.

Sure I take Metformin 3 times a day with meals, and I'm aware of how it affects my body. However, I don't do much more. With the Metformin, I have to be cautious with what I eat. Not many carbs and definitely not many rich/creamy foods. Since my diagnosis almost 3 years ago, it's been a struggle for me.

My main problem is simple: If I'm taking my medicine and feeling good, I'll eat a food I miss because I think it won't hurt. Then it does hurt. Then I get so mad at myself for messing up my body, and falling off the wagon.

Alfredo sauce? LOVED it. It used to be the only dish I would order at Italian restaurants. Now? I have to stick with marinara or something less creamy than alfredo.

Ice cream shakes with whipped cream? Make me drool. If I just split one, or take a few sips of Phil's, I would be fine. Having my own to drink is what makes me sick, no matter what the size is. I had one on Friday night and woke up Saturday feeling awful. I mean, the skipped-breakfast-because-my-stomach-hurt-so-much kind of awful.

I talked to Phil a little about it this weekend and asked for support. Now, Phil is a very supportive husband, and I know he'd do it without hesitation. For me, it's mostly feeling guilty because his diet will have to change a little bit too. The kind of foods in our home will be different. An example would be, instead of spaghetti noodles, I would love to start eating spaghetti squash with our homemade pasta sauce. It's the same concept, but I know it won't taste exactly the same. While Phil is not a picky eater now that he's an adult, {I've heard otherwise during his early childhood}, I just need to know for sure he'll let me do this.

My greatest fear is developing full-on diabetes. I really want to avoid this. The best way I can see doing that? Live a diabetic lifestyle so my insulin-intolerance doesn't get out of hand.

It's going to be hard. I may will fall off the wagon. However, with support, I know I can be successful and make this lifestyle change. I want to be in good health for years to come.

Friday, October 12, 2012

Jillian: {Ten Months}


Jillian –

You are ten months old today! I can’t believe we’re in double digits already! Get used to me commenting on how fast you are growing because I just can’t wrap my head around it. According to our at-home measurements, you are 17 lbs, 16 oz and 27 3/4 inches long. We will ask to weigh you next week for your second flu shot just to be sure that number is accurate :)

You still have a few 6 Month outfits, but you are mostly in 6-9 Month, 9 Month, and a handful of 12 Month clothes. You wear size 3 diapers.

Eating is a little funny right now. You are really great at picking up food and putting it in your mouth! I’ve been giving you more and more table food because pureed food just seems to bore you now. However, you don’t eat very much, but down your bottle. I guess you’re on a mini solid food strike for now. Hopefully this phase won’t last too long. I’m not too worried about you not eating enough, but I will call the doctor if I need to. You LOVE Cheerios. If you don’t eat anything else, you will eat Cheerios until you’re full. Your two favorite finger foods are Cheerios, and plain wheat toast.
You have 6 more days of Zantac and then you’re done! It has been quite an adjustment giving it to you once a day instead of twice, but you don’t seem to mind ;)

No new teeth yet. We’re still waiting!

You are a mover and a shaker! You army crawl so fast now that you really keep me on my toes. You can now sit in crawling position, but your belly falls back down once you get moving. Everyday you get closer to crawling with your belly off the ground. You can pull up to your knees, but need help getting all the way up to your feet. If we help and prop you against the couch, or ourselves, you can stand for at least 30 seconds before you fall on your butt. We recently baby proofed most of the house. I think you like that I’m not constantly moving you away and that you get to explore independently. However, we may need a baby gate or two just to be on the safe side. You crawl all over you daddy and I, or any toys in your way. If you see something you want, you go for it! You’re starting to chase the cats around, and it is the funniest thing. You do seem to understand the word “No” and listen to me about 9 times out of 10. I try to only say “no” if it’s a dangerous situation so you know that I mean it. Sometimes I do have to put you in the Pack n Play to cook dinner, but you’ve realized its purpose. You will cry and cry until I rescue you from “prison”.

Sleep is good most days. You nap between 1 and 2 hours twice a day. You woke up a few times in the middle of the night lately, but you also had a cold at the time! We appreciate you sleeping through the night when you’re well though :)

You love to get chatty, but you’re only saying “mama” and “dada” consistently. However, you seem to at least say the correct number of syllables when we say a new word to you! The other night, you told your daddy “no” for the first time, and there was no mistaking what you said! You also seem to be getting close to the words “cat” and “quack”. I can’t wait for you to really start talking! You also point at things and make sounds, which is big too! You understand simple commands and questions such as “Ready for your bottle?”, “Do you want to play with the _____?”, “Grab the _____”, “Turn the page”, “Want mama to pick you up?”, and “Come to mama/dada”. If you’re not distracted, you can point to animals you are familiar with such as cats, dogs, lions, ducks, and monkeys. Even if you don’t point to them, if we say an animal name and make the sound, you smile really big as if you understand exactly what we’re saying.

You went to your first football game this past month! Even though it wasn’t a really happy game, and mama got severely sunburned, you had a good time and didn’t get sunburned at all.
Strangers are not a big deal for you, yet. However, if there is a group of people talking to each other instead of admiring you, you’ll get fussy until everyone turns and smiles at you. We may have a diva on our hands already. ;)

Although you like most of your toys, the simplest things make you happy. The other day, you played with a red plastic cup for about 25 minutes straight before you were ready for something different. You love shoelaces, mirrors, dancing/music, and cups. The other day, you found daddy’s credit card and put it in and out of cup for about 15 minutes. The fact that you liked daddy’s credit card is probably a sign of things to come HAHA

Clapping is your newest trick and you do it all the time!

You still love bath time, but you’re really good at letting us know you’re ready to get out. If we ask “Do you want out?”, you raise up your arms and look at us.

Books are still fun for you and you’re really great at turning pages!

I started reducing the amount of time the TV is on just in the background and I feel like it’s really helped you concentrate on what you’re doing. You eat better, and you have more fun playing when you’re not distracted. You get to watch 1 show on TV and 1 episode of Yo Gabba Gabba on Netflix. Other than that, I have the TV off during the day.

Jillian, you have truly blessed our lives! Watching you grow and try new things is such a delight. Know that we’re proud of you and love you very much :)

A just a few outtakes for fun:
{Mid-sentence babbling} 

{Giving mama a heart attack by leaning really far over} 

 {This happened at least 7 times during the 10 minutes I tried to take pictures}
{Yawn. Bored and ready for nap time, but still cute :)}

And some comparisons :)









Thursday, October 11, 2012

Just Add Color Fall Swap Package Reveal

I had the pleasure of being partnered with Emily at Everything Emily for Jessica and Ashlee's Just Add Color Fall Swap! I got my package on Thursday, 10/4 and couldn't wait to open it up!

{Jillian was excited too!} 

{Here mama, let me help you open it!}

Inside, I had a sweet, hand-written note, some awesome orange nail polish, and a beautiful blue scarf! The scarf reminds me of a peacock, which is what I'm really into right now.
{See how beautiful? She did an awesome job!} 

{Love the colors :)}

{Shortly after opening, Jillian took off when the scarf. I guess she wanted to wear it herself! HAHA}

Thanks again Emily! I really love everything :)

You should definitely check out Emily's blog! She's a sweet girl and I know you'll love her too!

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Day of Silence


Today I am participating in a Blog Day of Silence.

Please pray for Julee and Preslee Turner - today is Matt's funeral. 

Pray also for all of those who have lost a loved one this year.
{per}

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Cold In Every Sense of the Word

{The title may not make much sense to anyone besides myself. Basically, because it's cold outside and Jillian has a cold, I thought it was appropriate ;)}

I started a post on Thursday afternoon, but didn't quite finish it. I had a rough few days with a few shining moments of goodness. {This includes getting my swap package from my partner, Emily, and I LOVED it!} At least there was a silver lining right? Jillian has caught yet another cold so she's been screaming in my face all. day. long. I feel so bad because there's not much I can do. I just pray this cold is short lived and that I don't catch it too.

Yesterday late afternoon, Jillian was being so silly despite not feeling well. First of all, she did this...
{She took out every shape of her play mat}

Then she tried to crawl through one of the shapes! By the time I got her picture, she was mostly out of it, but this is what I saw...

Later that night, Phil didn't get to come home until after 8. We had a Skype date with my brother at 8:30, then Phil and Jillian ended up passing out around10.
{So sweet :)}

Today it's really cold! In fact, we may get our first frost overnight, and we turned on our heater :) It's that nice, crisp cold that makes you realize that it's finally fall. Love it! Even with her cold, and the cold weather, I really wanted to take Jillian to the park. We didn't stay long, but we found a cute little park nearby our neighborhood.
{In the baby swing} 

{Swinging with mama} 

{Kisses from daddy}

I have about two more errands I'd like to do today, but I'm fine just curling up with a blanket and hot chocolate while I snuggle with my sick bebe.

I hope y'all are having a great weekend so far!

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Wordless Wednesday: 10/3

{Evolution of a Cheerio Mess}

p.s. I have my phone again! It is up and running, and I feel like I'm back in the 21st Century ;)

Monday, October 1, 2012

Playing The Catch-Up Game

I don't know about y'all, but my weekend flew by. I got barely half of our to-do list done. This is partially because this is the first weekend we've been home so our list was pretty long. We got the house mostly baby-proofed, but we have a few more things to do. I really wanted to get a new SIM card so I can use my cell phone again, but that didn't happen. Surely I can do it by Wednesday, but we'll see.

Today I mailed off my partner's box for the Just Add Color Fall Swap hosted by Jessica and Ashlee! I really hope she likes it, and I'm excited to get mine. Other than that, I didn't do too much today. It did start off with me battling not 1, not 2, but 3 recluses. Of course, one of them was pregnant. Ick ick ick!! Luckily I killed the pregnant one, and successfully got away from the other two. Phil can battle those later. I realized that most of my "fall" decorations are actually Halloween decorations. Whoops! I put out what little I had and this is the end result:
{Our doorway to the house}
{Please ignore the cat photo-bomb!} 

{Our mantel}
Like I said, it's a little pitiful, but hopefully I can change that over the next year or so :)
Also, I tried putting a bow in Jillian's hair without a headband for the first time today! It didn't stay on long, but girlfriend was cute like always.
{She smiled really big for the first photo, but looked away shyly as I snapped the camera} 

{Cutie-pie :D}

Good news: our AC will be fixed tomorrow!!! Of course, our first hard frost may be as early as Thursday, but oh well ;) We have a few things to do aside from that and it's the first morning I'm going to work out early. Phil and I have figured out that I can work out before he goes to work on Tuesdays/Thursdays. Monday/Wednesday/Friday I'll go as soon as he gets home. I'm excited to be working out again. It reminds me of when I was trying to lose weight before our wedding in 2008. Hopefully it'll bring about the results I want :)

I hope y'all had a great Monday!

But I Know What It Feels Like

This post is going to be awfully vulnerable and hard for me, but I really want to finally say it out loud. I got permission for my daughter ...