Monday, October 15, 2012

Coming to Terms

Since I'm an honest person, I feel like I need to admit something. I don't take my PCOS very seriously.

Sure I take Metformin 3 times a day with meals, and I'm aware of how it affects my body. However, I don't do much more. With the Metformin, I have to be cautious with what I eat. Not many carbs and definitely not many rich/creamy foods. Since my diagnosis almost 3 years ago, it's been a struggle for me.

My main problem is simple: If I'm taking my medicine and feeling good, I'll eat a food I miss because I think it won't hurt. Then it does hurt. Then I get so mad at myself for messing up my body, and falling off the wagon.

Alfredo sauce? LOVED it. It used to be the only dish I would order at Italian restaurants. Now? I have to stick with marinara or something less creamy than alfredo.

Ice cream shakes with whipped cream? Make me drool. If I just split one, or take a few sips of Phil's, I would be fine. Having my own to drink is what makes me sick, no matter what the size is. I had one on Friday night and woke up Saturday feeling awful. I mean, the skipped-breakfast-because-my-stomach-hurt-so-much kind of awful.

I talked to Phil a little about it this weekend and asked for support. Now, Phil is a very supportive husband, and I know he'd do it without hesitation. For me, it's mostly feeling guilty because his diet will have to change a little bit too. The kind of foods in our home will be different. An example would be, instead of spaghetti noodles, I would love to start eating spaghetti squash with our homemade pasta sauce. It's the same concept, but I know it won't taste exactly the same. While Phil is not a picky eater now that he's an adult, {I've heard otherwise during his early childhood}, I just need to know for sure he'll let me do this.

My greatest fear is developing full-on diabetes. I really want to avoid this. The best way I can see doing that? Live a diabetic lifestyle so my insulin-intolerance doesn't get out of hand.

It's going to be hard. I may will fall off the wagon. However, with support, I know I can be successful and make this lifestyle change. I want to be in good health for years to come.

4 comments:

  1. It's SO hard to make lifestyle changes even when we know it is for the best for our health and for our family. Good luck!

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    1. Thank you so much J! The hardest thing for me are the days I don't have time to prep. It's almost easier to skip meals, which I know is awful to do. Hopefully I'll figure it out soon :)

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  2. Thanks for sharing. While I don't have PCOS, I have struggled with my weight for years. It is one of the hardest things to deal with. Free will so often beats self-control. Good luck! I need some too...

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    1. You're so right about free will beating self-control. That is definitely something that gets the best of me. Good luck to you too!

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