Wednesday, June 30, 2010

You'd Better Lie Low...


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Today has been rough physically. I had an ultrasound at 9:45am. I had a regular over the belly, then an internal one. I've had several of these before, but this felt like it lasted forever. Then she told me to wait and her supervisor ended up doing an internal one herself just to double check things. Phil and I came home and relaxed before my 1:45pm appointment with Dr. Vaughan. We went in and she pretty much gave us the explanation of what happened. It sounds like I started to have a miscarriage earlier, (hence, me thinking I had a light period), and I just didn't push everything out. So now I am on this regimen to bring my hormones to zero. I had to do more blood tests, (my poor veins are turning purple and blue :'( ), then I had two deep hip (aka butt) shots of methotrexate, which is apparently a low dose chemo medicine.

There was a funny moment though. The nurse who administered the shots was really sweet and took me into a small room as an outpatient. She tells me a little about what will be happening, the side effects, what I can do for relief, etc. Then she tells me the two shots are deep hip. Hearing hip, I'm thinking it's the front of my hip near the ovaries and my hip bone. Being scared of needles and of what's going on period, I start to get a little light headed. Once she explained she means my butt, I felt a little better. However, she took my vitals and of course my blood pressure was *cough**cough* a little high HAHA. After the shots, they let the patients rest for 20 minutes, check their vitals again to make sure there are no negative effects of the medicine, then let them go. So when they checked my blood pressure again, it was back to normal :) It was really painful, but now I'm able to sit again.

I will have to go on Saturday to check my blood again to see if my hCG is going down. If it's not, I'll get another shot. Hopefully being just at 96, I won't need another shot.

Other than that, I'm still doing pretty well. Again, I'm so thankful for all of you and your sweet, sweet comments here and on twitter. I love you all!


Day 01 - Your favorite song

Day 02 - Your least favorite song
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"Billionaire" by Travie McCoy (ft. Bruno Mars)

Day 03 - A song that makes you happy
Day 04 - A song that makes you sad
Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 - A song that reminds you of somewhere
Day 07 - A song that you know all the words to
Day 08 - A song that you can dance to
Day 09 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 10 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 11 - A song that makes you think of your best friend
Day 12 - A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 13 - A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 14 - A song that describes you
Day 15 - A song from your favorite album
Day 16 - A song from your favorite band
Day 17 - A song from a band you can't stand
Day 18 - A song that makes you laugh
Day 19- A song that you wish you could play
Day 20 - A song from your childhood
Day 21- A song with great lyrics
Day 22- A song you love with no lyrics
Day 23 - A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 24 - A song that you could never get tired of
Day 25 - Your favorite song at this time last year

I feel like I need to explain this choice. You see, I don't know what it's like where you live, but this plays on the radio all. the. time. That's no even the worst of it. If you recall some of the teen movies from the late 90's, early 2000's, (like this fine movie), a few of them had a large group dance at prom, like High School Musical's entire franchise. Well, when this song plays in a public area, I hear the singer coon "I wanna be a billionaire...", then the ENTIRE place I'm at will join in as loud as they can with "SO FREAKIN' BAD!" That's it. No other lines of the song but that. And I mean literally, everyone but Phil and I will do this. Once we were at a froyo shop and I'm pretty sure the workers did this too. Oy...

Peace to you,


"Violet Hill" by Coldplay

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Give It Up Baby, I Hear Your Goodbye...


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First and foremost, I want to sincerely thank everyone from the bottom of my heart. Your thoughts, prayers, and sweet comments really helped me these past 10 days.

Secondly, if you can't think of anything else to say to me, please don't let it include the phrase "it just wasn't the right time." I'm actually dealing with this rather well and I feel like I'm well aware that this is not my fault. This was clearly a natural occurrence that would have happened no matter what. Even just a happy face to tell me you're thinking of me is all I need right now.

I got a phone call around 3:30 from Dr. Vaughan telling me that my hCG level was only at 96. This means I no longer have a viable pregnancy. All my signs and symptoms over the weekend were due to my progesterone medicine. I have to do an ultrasound at 10am then meet with the doctor to discuss how she wants to proceed. It sounds like she'll be giving me a prescription that will cause me to jump start my period and help me push out everything. Then I have to stay around until my levels are at 0 again. This also means I can't leave town to be with my parents until everything is ok. And of course, now I want them around more than ever.

I actually had an ultrasound thanks to my OU doctor and it sounds like it's a tubal pregnancy. With my hormones still under 100, it may not take too long to get my levels back to my non-pregnant state.

I'm doing ok for now. I'm sure letting it sink in after a few days, I'll be singing a different tune. For now, I'm just taking things a step at a time. As the inspiring Angie Smith said, "I think that my Jesus is the same as He was before I walked into this room." I have no reason to blame God and if anything, I'm glad he showed me that nothing is impossible. I was told getting pregnant would be hard and He proved my doctors wrong.

Again, I really do appreciate all of you and value your friendship even more. The next few days will be pretty hard so if you don't mind, please think about Phil and I while we figure this out together.

Peace to you,

"Cry" by Faith Hill

And Hit 'Em Up With A Tune Called Turkey In The Straw...


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Inspired by Theresa, I have decided to do the 25 Days of Music list! It should be lots of fun :)

Day 01 - Your favorite song
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"Our God" by Chris Tomlin

Day 02 - Your least favorite song
Day 03 - A song that makes you happy
Day 04 - A song that makes you sad
Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 - A song that reminds you of somewhere
Day 07 - A song that you know all the words to
Day 08 - A song that you can dance to
Day 09 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 10 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 11 - A song that makes you think of your best friend
Day 12 - A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 13 - A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 14 - A song that describes you
Day 15 - A song from your favorite album
Day 16 - A song from your favorite band
Day 17 - A song from a band you can't stand
Day 18 - A song that makes you laugh
Day 19- A song that you wish you could play
Day 20 - A song from your childhood
Day 21- A song with great lyrics
Day 22- A song you love with no lyrics
Day 23 - A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 24 - A song that you could never get tired of
Day 25 - Your favorite song at this time last year


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I'm going for my blood test in about an hour to see where my hormones are. I'm just going to say, I think they're up. I got mad at Phil and literally yelled at him for about 3 minutes. After I left and got in the car, I started crying. Then I called and apologized so we're good. I turn the radio back on and start bawling again. Holy Hormones! lol

I did have a nice dinner last night! I'll be sure to post the recipe on here later. It was turkey burgers and boy were they good! Right now, red meat and anything greasy does not sound appealing at all to me. These really hit the spot :) Then of course we went out for some froyo. It was a nice summer evening.

Hope y'all are doing well!

Peace to you,


"Turkey in the Straw" by George Washington Dixon

Monday, June 28, 2010

It's Like Thunder And Lightning...


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Happy (early) Monday morning. I don't know about you, but I was not ready for today. I couldn't get to sleep until close to midnight then some thunderstorms came loud and clear! Oy... Poor Phil woke up half because of the sudden thunder boom and half from me yelping because it woke me up/scared me. HAHA Did not mean to do that!

Today I called the doctor hoping to do my blood test tomorrow. If I have good news, maybe she'll let me go on my trip to Minnesota! You see, every two years the Presbyterian Church has this huge convention called General Assembly (or GA). It's like when the legislative branch of the United States meets. We have lots of meetings, pass (or fail) legislation to our bylaws and have some worship time. I have volunteered for several things including a mass choir! It just so happens that GA is meeting in Minneapolis! I have been planning since January on coming for GA, then staying a few extra days to be with my parents. Well, I'm worried if my levels aren't high enough, or just any reason really, my doctor won't let me go :( I really want to go because I haven't seen my parents since my birthday, (late March), and I don't know when I'd see them again before Thanksgiving :'( I'm waiting for the doctor/nurse to call back and I'll ask about the trip then. I figured, even if my levels are good now, they won't do an ultrasound until closer to 8 weeks which is around the time I get back! I know it's running a risk in case I miscarry, but I'm listening to my body like even is telling me and my body is saying everything's good. Hopefully this will all work out.
:::EDIT::: The nurse called me back and as long as Baby Kit Kat has good numbers, I have a go for going! Just another reason to prayer for good numbers. However, I spoke to a woman at church who told me she was given the progesterone I have and that's what helped her with her son. Makes me feel better :)

Other than that, I have a voice lesson today at lunch and my bro is coming for dinner tonight! Turkey burgers and tater tots! He starts a new job on July 1st and I hope he enjoys it.

Peace to you,


"Knock On Wood" by Amii Stewart

Saturday, June 26, 2010

It's Been One Week Since You Looked At Me, Threw Your Arms In The Air And Said "You're Crazy!"...


My first official pregnancy update! I'm so happy to be starting these :D Sorry for the horrible picture though...

Today's date: June 26, 2010

How far along: 6 weeks

Total weight gain: No clue


Size and growth of the baby: The size of a sweet pea :)

Sex: Too soon

Maternity clothes: Not yet, but my nice jeans are starting to get uncomfortable when I'm sitting for long periods of time

Sleep: I haven't been sleeping very well for awhile now. Luckily my progesterone medicine makes me drowsy. Now I can fall asleep a little better, with the help of my new body pillow, but I still wake up at least once to pee.

Best moment(s) of the week: Hearing a confirmation from the doctor that it's official, hearing my numbers did double and buying my first onesie online :)

Movement: None

Food cravings/aversions: I want Kit Kat bars and fresh veggies/fruits all the time. No real aversions yet.

Morning sickness: Not really experiencing that just yet, though I'm not complaining

Symptoms: I get nauseous every so often, but mostly when I need to eat again. Also, I'm pretty tired and have been taking lots of naps lately. I have been also been making many more bathroom trips than I'm used to!

Labor signs: Not quite there yet

Belly button in or out: In

What I miss: Nothing :)

What I'm looking forward to: Our next appointment...being out of the first trimester! Soon!


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Today I've been taking it easy and just watching Netflix on the couch. Phil and I went to see Iron Man 2 last night, but it was a 9:45pm showing. I started to not feel so well the last 10 minutes so I slipped out. Luckily it was mostly gas and being really tired. I got pretty scared though.

Tomorrow I'm going to my home church for one of my last youth group meetings and to announce my good news there. I figured the more prayers I have, the better. Plus, I'm starting to do my thing and make plans/lists that are helping me feel like this is really going to happen. Keeping my chin up, that's for sure.

Hope you're having a good Saturday that's MUCH cooler than it is down here!

Peace to you,

"One Week" by Barenaked Ladies

Friday, June 25, 2010

Then What Could Stand Against...

First and foremost, thank you to everyone who prayed or crossed their fingers for me this week. I honestly believe this is what helped get me through the week. I cannot express just how thankful I am to have such supportive group of people in my life. Thank you times a million :) {{{HUGS}}}

Secondly, I figured I'd give you a run down of my week and let you know what I do. I'm pretty hopeful and calm for now, but still scared and worried. However, I figure most first time moms are a little on edge anyways ;)

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Saturday
Knowing that it was my one year anniversary for my early early miscarriage, (it wasn't even officially confirmed by a doctor yet), I had no idea how to treat the day. I already knew that Phil would have to work from 11-7 so I'd be home alone most of the day. I spent a good part of the day in bed just relaxing. Plus, it was so hot outside, I didn't want to do anything. Around noon, I decided to move to the couch and watch a movie. I watch "The First Wives Club" on Netflix and really enjoyed it! The last 20 minutes of the movie, I decided to use my 3 lb weights and do some arm exercises since I want toned arms for Annette's wedding in May. After that I look around and realize I need to pick up the apartment. I had a guest staying over the next night and we just had trash everywhere. I change into some different clothes and go at it. Now, being the Aries that I am, I have a tendency to get distracted very easily. I was looking through our wedding guest book and got an idea for my Matron of Honor toast at Annette's wedding. As I search for a notebook, I make a quick stop to the bathroom. Now, I had gotten what I assumed was my period exactly a week ago. Now that I look back on it, it wasn't has heavy as it usually is and I did not have the cramping I usually do. However, I was so distracted by the wedding I was in, I didn't even think about it. Well, three days after my period was supposed to be over, I had some very light brown spotting going on. For whatever reason beyond my own understanding, I thought I'd use the last old pregnancy test I had. I think mostly to get it out of my bathroom. So I do my thing and lay in on the edge of the tub. I vividly remember saying out loud "It's going to be negative. I don't know what the hell I'm doing this for". So I get up, wash my hands and do my own thing. About a minute later, I walk over to the restroom and I see this faint line on the test making it a plus sign. My heart literally stopped for a moment and I got all shaky. I ran back to my bed and just sat there breathing for a minute. I go back and pick up the test and sure enough, there's a faint line. Being an old test, I didn't have the box or instructions. So I call my friend Jess because I needed someone to quickly look at this and tell me I'm not crazy. She comes with our friend Laci and they took me to Walgreen's for a new test. I got a two pack of the digital so I wouldn't misread it. I take the digital test and walk away. The two of them go over and eventually tell me what I already knew: it said pregnant. We hugged, Laci cried and Jess jumped up and down several times. I always promised Phil I'd tell him in a creative way so we went looking for some unisex booties, (which is NOT easy btw), and stuck them in an old shoe box. When he got home from work, I told Phil I bought something so he couldn't be mad at me. I said, "You know how you've been talking about needing new sneakers? Well, I got you this at the store today" and I hand him the box. He opens it and says "Aww, that's cute. Also, it's one less thing for us to buy later" and he sets it next to him on the couch. I stand a look back and forth between him and the box for a few seconds. I finally say "You know what that means right?!" He stares and me with a confused look on his face and shifts his eyes for about 10 seconds before his eyes get huge. "Wait a minute. Does this mean...?" "Yeah" "And you found out today?!" "Yes" "What... How... Wa..... Didn't you... But you had your period last week!" "I know, I thought so too!" "So... wow" "Yeah." After that we just kind of sat around the apartment not knowing what to do and just processing the information.

Sunday
Phil had to work again, but I gave me a fitting Father's Day card that he showed off at work. We didn't do a whole lot that day, but that was fine with me.

Monday
I call to get an appointment with my normal OB-GYN Dr. Vaughan. I'm told to just come by anytime and pick up the paperwork to do a blood test. After my ceramics class, I go by and do my test. As soon as I get to work afterwards, I get a phone call from the doctor. "Mrs Coghill?" "This is she" "Well, you just left here didn't you?" *heart starts to pound* "Yep, I sure did." "Well guess what?" *heart stops and mind starts to scream "this isn't a professional way to start a conversation!"* "What?" "I missed on of the tests on the orders so you'll need to come back and do it." *sigh of relief/frustration* "Oh ok." So I got get stuck for a second time in one day. I get a call later informing me that only half my results came back so they can't give me full details. However, my HCG is low so I could be fine or I could be having a miscarriage. After they get the full results, the doctor will call and have me come for another test most likely. Lovely. Before bed, Phil and I discover our insurance through OU does have maternity coverage so I'd need a referral appointment from their health center. We make an appointment for the next day.

Tuesday
I spend the WHOLE morning waiting for Dr. Vaughan's office to call. I start to stress out and really worry. After what seems like forever, I get out of class and head to Norman for the referral appointment. As I'm walking in the doors of the women's center, my phone rings. The nurse from Dr. Vaughan's office informs me that my progesterone is a little low as well so they'll be sending a prescription for some progesterone ASAP. Also, I will need to come in for another blood test to see if my levels have gone up. If they double, that's good news. If they go down, I do not have a viable pregnancy. I meet with the OU doctor who is the first to say out loud "You are pregnant" and tells me my "period" from the week before could have been implantation or the body trying to have a miscarriage (there's that word again). So she orders a blood test to check my HCG levels. However, this is a test that has to be sent out so she won't know the results very quickly. Lovely. I get stuck for a third time, but luckily they used my right arm instead this time. I was asked to come back Thursday afternoon for a follow up appointment. Phil and I remember as we're walking out of the health center that the Michael Buble concert is in Tulsa that night. He got floor seats as my Valentine's Day gift. Well, I really wanted to go and I've never had floor seats before. We decide to go and we have a blast. I even get to touch his hand!!! I told my mom that I no longer have a left and right hand, but instead have a left and Buble hand ;) I slept a good part of the way home that night.

Wednesday
I go to class as per usual, still worried about my blood test. Well, none of my stuff was ready to go so I ask permission to go take my blood test and come back. The professor agrees and Phil takes me to get my left arm stuck again, (we're up to four times now). I go back to class, then to work. The whole time I'm just sick to my stomach and scared. I finally get a call around 3pm saying my hCG had doubled! I didn't get an exact number, but that would put me in the 60's at least. It's still low, but it is going in the right direction. I'm assuming Dr. Vaughan isn't too concerned because my next test to check my levels is not until next week. I start my twice daily progesterone medicine. I go back to school after work to finish my project and get home pretty late.

Thursday
I don't have class for very long because it's the last day. I go to work a little early and feel pretty calm about everything. I go to my follow up appointment at OU and end up getting another hCG test (we now have a total of 5 in 4 days. Awesome). I won't know those levels until Monday at the earliest. I had a talk with the doctor there who decides to do an actual pelvic exam while I'm there. She didn't take a sample of anything, but she wanted to see how things looked. She told me she saw a little bit of brown spotting, but nothing she's overly concerned about. Also, my cervix is closed which is apparently another good sign. The doctor did a few other things, such as press on my lower abs and listened to my lungs to see how I was overall. She did inform me that, if I had any abdominal pain or bleeding to go to the ER. Ugh. I understand why she's telling me this, but I wish the word "miscarriage" would stop coming up. So anyways, overall she seemed positive which made me feel good again :)

I'm taking prenatal vitamins as well right now. I get nauseous every so often, but never for a while. I'm really sleep and my bathroom breaks have become more frequent. Other than that, I don't really have any symptoms. That makes me a little worried, but I keep forgetting just how early it is. The baby would be about 3 or 4 weeks putting me at about 5 weeks pregnant. I think as long as I remain calm, everything should be fine.

If you wouldn't mind continuing to send prayers and good thoughts my way, I'd be very happy :) Once I hear Baby C's heart beat, I think I'll be much better. That's also when I'll make it facebook official ;)

Hope y'all have had a good week with less needle experience than me!

Peace to you,

"Our God" by Chris Tomlin (listening to this daily :D)

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

We're Having A Baby, My Baby And Me...


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I was hoping to not announce this until I had a better idea, but I really need prayers right now.

On June 19th, what would have been the year anniversary of my early early miscarriage, I took a home pregnancy test on a whim. That test turned into two more digital tests that all said the same thing: pregnant. In complete shock, I told Hubby in a creative way like I always promised I would. That's a story for next time. With it being a Saturday, I had to wait until Monday, yesterday, to call the doctor to confirm the pregnancy. Well, they didn't really confirm nor deny yesterday. The suspense was killing me! Well, I needed to do a referral appointment for insurance sake so I went to the OU health center where I got a call from my normal doctor as I walked through the door. Both my norman gynecologist and the doctor at OU told me that my hormone levels are a little low, even with Baby C being 3 weeks old. I have to go back for more blood tests tomorrow AND Thursday to see if they are going up. I was told a miscarriage could be happening OR I could be completely fine. Um, pretty sure those are COMPLETE opposite scenarios, but whatever.

So I'm asking for prayers. I want my numbers to go up. I know I could handle another miscarriage if I need to, but I really don't want to. And even though it wasn't planned, (and if you know me, you know I love lists and plans), I want and love this baby more than anything. If you could pray or send happy thoughts my way, I would appreciate it more than you know. Being a major worry wart, I'm already thinking of all the possible things that could happy and might happen. I'm trying so hard to be positive and obviously none of the doctors are SUPER concerned about me. I don't know. I'm just scared and nervous. So if you could, please pray that my numbers go up when I give blood tomorrow. I really do thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Peace to you,
(and Baby C)

"We're Having a Baby" by Dezi Arnaz

Sunday, June 20, 2010

You'll Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life...





I know most people are doing this today.... and I'm no exception :)

Happy Father's Day to my amazing father. The one who serenaded me with "Father and Daughter" on his guitar the night before my wedding. The one who always understood me because we have such similar personalities. The one who could give the best hugs even if he didn't know what to say. I'll always be your little girl :)

Now enjoy these clips I found on youtube! These are the types of things we always laughed at together. The sound of his laughter is like music to me.





Peace to you,

"Haven't Met You Yet" by Michael Buble

Friday, June 18, 2010

Then Who Could Ever Stop Us...


I had the privilege to attend the Chris Tomlin & tobyMac concert at the OKC Zoo Ampitheater last night with Phil. It. was. awesome. Seriously! Chris Tomlin went first and we had kind of a mini-worship service going on. I nearly cried during "Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone)" and I loved the feeling I had during his whole performance. In case you were wondering, both are just as amazing live as they are on their CDs :D Then tobyMac came and we had a party! HAHA Phil and I left 1 song early, but we had quite a walk ahead of us and we could still hear everything just as well :) I had a great time! I don't have many pictures because the camera died before it even started! D'oh! I did capture 4 on my phone. I'll be sure to share them later.

Today we're going out to dinner with his dad for Father's Day! Jim's driving into town just for lunch because that's all he wanted as a gift: lunch on us. I have no clue where we're going, but I'm sure it'll be good. I'm excited about my dad's gift! I can't wait for him to find out! I sure hope he likes it. Plus, we'll probably do a video call on Father's Day so he can see my lovely face HAHA!

I can't believe I have 4 more days of my ceramics class and just 12, (well, 11 1/2), more days before I head up to Minnesota for two weeks! I'm very excited! General Assembly will be lots of fun and it will be great to just be with my parents for awhile. I should be able to upload pictures during my trip.

Happy Friday everyone!

Peace to you,

"Our God" by Chris Tomlin

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Jumping Into A Puddle, Wearing No Boots...

Two posts in one day! Oh my! LOL

This is actually something that just happened so I thought I'd share. My co-worker-lady-ma'am is similar to my BFF Annette who introduces me to new things they like that I 9-times-outta-10 like as well. This gives us an opportunity to be nerdy together. Co-worker-lady-ma'am's newest thing... The Abominable Charles Christopher. It's a good comic strip and I think she said he used to be a Marvel comic artist! How cool! Anyways, the comic only debuts once a week so starting from the beginning doesn't take very long. I have two favorite strips already. The first one was posted the day before my birthday last year and the character on the right is similar to me ;) The second one I just found funny period.

Also, thanks to the comics, I found this song! It's by a band from Iceland so the lyrics are not in English. That video also took me to this sweet, sweet video. It's only about 3 minutes long, but totally worth it, I promise!

Hope you enjoy!

Peace to you,

"Hoppaipolla" by Sigur Ros (found english words by google)

In Between What I Feel and What I'm Told...

I actually haven't been having a really good day. Don't get me wrong, it could be MUCH worse. However, I'm just not feeling super happy. I guess you could say I'm just a little blue. My ceramics class didn't go so well and now I have to remake one of my projects. Then a conversation was started that really upset me. Also, I may have stumbled upon some information at work that I shouldn't have. If it is what I believe it to be, it's not good news :( So I decided a nice picture post of places I'd rather be today will cheer me up. Hopefully it lifts you a little if you're feeling the same.













And of course, where I wish I could be with Phil right now...

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Ahhh.... much better :)

I don't know if you read this blog as well, but little baby Cohen has been going through a lot the 9 days he has been alive. Right now they are specifically praying for his kidneys and liver. If you have a spare moment, at least send good thoughts their way if you don't pray. I want to dedicate this video to Megan and her broken-hearted baby. I pray that God continues to be with you and heal baby Cohen. I pray He holds the hearts of everyone in the family so that peace and mercy are felt.



Peace to you,

"The Ocean" by Mae

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

And I've Got This Fiery Temper...

I don't know about you, but I have a temper. It's not just any temper either. I'm an Irish Aries from a long line of red heads (though I only have a little natural red in my hair). If I'm mad, you don't want to be around me. Grumpy is one thing, but mad is a completely different story. I actually used to kick the wall, (which hurt too much after awhile), and throw my stuffed teddy bear around. I need time to just be really angry. Even if it's for a stupid reason and I'm totally wrong about my stand, you have to let me work it out. I will apologize if I'm wrong, but that doesn't happen too often HAHA! ;)

My poor husband gets the worst of it. I think it is because he knows me so intimately now. We really are best friends and he knows me very well. Knowing me well does not always equal how to handle me at my worst. It's similar to harnessing an enraged lion with just a rubber band. I am working hard on my patience and temper, but I know it's going to be a life-long struggle. However, sometimes Phil can push my buttons just right and I'm just pissed within seconds. It doesn't even escalate! I'm automatically mad and there's no stopping me. Luckily he's been blessed with just enough patience to deal with me :) God really knew what he was doing.

It's so funny that we both act like our astrological sign when we're fighting, or anytime really. Even if you think astrology is bull, I know how we relate with our signs. It's a little scary sometimes. HAHA Again, luckily we have a strong enough relationship that, no matter how upset either of us are (or both!), we work it out and grow closer. I mean, we have at least 50 more years together. It can only go up from here :)

Hope your day is going well!

Peace to you,

"Help Me" by Trisha Yearwood

Monday, June 14, 2010

And I Wonder, Still I Wonder, Who'll Stop The Rain...

Reporting to you live from under the sea! Not really, but we've had enough rain and flooding today that it's almost true. In fact, the local weather just popped up during a commercial break of the Bachelorette and another HUGE, slow moving storm is heading this way... at 30 mph. Ugh. We got about 6 inches on average before noon today. I even ended up not going to school or work because parts of the highway were closed today.

This weekend was crazy. One for the books in my mind. However, we got Pake and Becca married and no one was physically hurt :) It was a pretty wedding and I think deep down they were glad to finally be married. Now that I'm officially done with all the weddings for the summer, I can get back to a regular blogging schedule! I know you've missed me HAHA!

Other than that, wrapping up my summer class before heading up to Minnesota for two weeks! I can't wait! I will miss Phil, but it's going to be wonderful to see my parents :D Also, I'm helping Annette plan her wedding. It's so much fun and I can't wait to throw her bachelorette party. It's going to be amazing, if I do say so myself ;)

Hope y'all are doing well!

Peace to you,

"Who'll Stop the Rain" by Creedence Clearwater Revival

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

So Set 'Em Up Joe...

Hey!
I'm still around, but I'm pooped! Between the family wedding, (which was beautiful), the co-worker wedding, (which was also amazing), work, my summer class (ceramics), and the heat/humidity, I'm about ready to call it quits and take a 2 day nap! Don't get me wrong, I've had a great few weeks. I'm just ready to get back to my usual schedule which includes updating my blog more often and reading my favorite blogs :) I'm a bridesmaid in a wedding this weekend, but after that I'm done. Summer is still a little crazy after June. I'll have GA in Minneapolis the first two weeks of July. Luckily I get to spend that time with my folks as well :D I will miss Phil since he can't take off from the lab. Maybe we can video chat!

A year ago today I posted about two different things and kept something else in my heart. I talked about the future for Phil and I and how we were unsure of where God would take us. As far as I know, we still have no idea ;) However, I am officially graduating this December and we'll find out later this summer if Phil will be finished at the same time! If he's not, it's not the end of the world. It wouldn't hurt though HAHA! I also posted about my boss' mother passing away the day before from colon cancer. I re-read that post and teared up. She was a wonderful woman and I can't believe it's already been a year since she went home. I made sure I told all my loved ones I loved them yesterday :)

What I kept in my heart was the fact that I knew by this point I was late with my period. In 10 days, I'll have the anniversary of the day I miscarried. It's going to be really hard and I'm not entirely sure what I'll want to do. All I know is, I'm so blessed to have the husband, family, and friends that God has given me. No matter how I'll feel, I know they'll be there and I won't have to experience it alone. That makes it a little easier to bear.

I hope y'all are doing well!

Peace to you,

"The Queen of Seville" by The Clientele

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