Daily Bread

A part of my personality cannot stand it when people speak to me like I'm an idiot. Making the same point over and over and over again will make me mad very quickly. It comes across like I'm perceived as thick-skulled or something. This is just one of my many flaws.

Sometimes I get the feeling God is trying to tell me something. While a part of me doesn't like feeling pushed, He has a way of doing it politely so that I'm more perceptive to it. {You know, like He knows what He's doing or something ;)} 

The bible study at my church has been exploring 1 Samuel. It's been enlightening most weeks, and I have enjoyed the discussion. The week before Jillian's birthday party, someone brought up a point about daily bread. She said that daily bread doesn't mean we're sitting pretty. It just means we have the bare minimum to get us through the day. So if we live to see another day, no matter how many items on our to-do list are not checked off, then we got our daily bread. As someone trying to prep the house for a 1st birthday party/open house, I found this comforting to a point. Then of course, Jillian ended up with a fever a few hours after the bible study. This meant my to-do list for the next 24 hours was completely shot. Talk about instant karma. Without the daily bread idea in my head, I would have been a little more upset about what I needed to get done. Instead, I was able to focus on taking care of my sweet girl.

About a week later, someone on Facebook posted this article. After reading it, I felt it related to the daily bread idea. Sure, I could try to do all these amazing things with Jillian. I could craft and cook and do all sorts of things. But all of that? It's just icing on the cake. Don't get me wrong; I won't be a free-range parent either. I just don't need to feel the mommy-shame or pressure to do everything everyone is in the world is doing. {Or at least, claiming that they are doing.}

All this to say, I'm listening. I get it. It will take a little time for me to cut myself that much slack, but it will be worth it. My sanity, my relationship with Jillian, my relationship with God; they are all dependent upon my ability to accept my daily bread. If I get the energy or time to do extra stuff? Super duper fantastico! Otherwise? I will thank God for my daily bread and get ready for another day in my hectic, beautiful life.