Honestly, I haven't felt this way in awhile. Maybe a little, but definitely not to this degree. I believe I was a senior in high school the last time. What am I talking about? Tunnel-vision determination. Having a specific goal and not letting anything stop me.
My weight is out of control. The pounds melted off for the few weeks I was able to breastfeed. I got down to 4 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight. I was SO happy.
Then I lost my supply.
Then my body started storing again.
I have always been worried about developing diabetes. I have one grandparent on either side of my family that developed Type II. Now that I'm on Metformin, I realize how close I am to developing it myself.
And? I want to be the type of mother than can keep up with her baby. It's not so bad now, but I want to be the best mama for Jillian I can. This means taking care of myself. Plus, I'm tired of avoiding any photos or videos we do of Jillian. I want to be comfortable taking pictures with my daughter!
I figured that by posting the embarrassing stats on my public blog, that will also help me get a kick in the butt that I need. It's one thing to say you're overweight, but another to admit just how bad it has gotten.
Here goes nothing...
Starting Weight: 235.6
Starting Upper Arm: 15"
Starting Chest: 45"
Starting Waist: 39"
Starting Hips: 50 1/2"
Starting Thighs: 27 1/2"
Starting Calves: 18"
Starting Photo:
Today was the first day. I'm tracking what I'm eating and I re-started my Biggest Loser workout video series. I started it once before but gave it up after awhile. This time? I'm gonna do it! You know how I can tell I have that motivation again?
I woke up this morning feeling really tired, (though that's commonplace right now). I figured losing an hour of sleep was the main culprit. I almost skipped working out like I had been planning. I sucked it up and went to the living room to start. Then halfway through the first workout? I felt sick. I'm talking first trimester, look-out-I'm-gonna-blow kind of sick. I paused the video and chilled out by the toilet just in case. I didn't actually throw up and I started to feel better after about 6 or 7 minutes. I got up and finished my workout. I could have just stopped there, but I knew it was important.
I've made every excuse before.
"I can't workout because the downstairs neighbors will hate me for making all that noise."
"I'm too tired this morning. One day won't hurt."
"I'll start tomorrow."
No. I'm starting today. Wish me luck :)
Good for you! I've been lucky enough to drop pregnancy weight and then some, but I deserve to weigh about 300 lbs with the way I've been eating. I made the commitment last week to start making a change in my eating habits, so that when I stop nursing, I'll have good eating habits in place and the weight won't come back. Changing your eating habits is hard, but kuddos to you for committing to do it!
ReplyDeleteThanks and good luck to you! Even when you know it's a worthy goal, sometimes making such a big change can be really tough.
DeleteI use my fitness pal too and I think it's a wonderful tool! We'll be praying for you in your weight loss journey! I've also been in the position where I needed to shed pounds because I feared ending up with diabetes like my dad and boy, is that scary! That being said, I know that if I can do it, anyone can, so you especially can! I look forward to seeing your progress!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Jessica! I really appreciate the support :)
DeleteThis is so exciting for you! I LOVE MyFitnessPal. (Are we friends on there?) Whether you're looking to lose weight, or simply SEE what you're eating to better control, it's amazing what it can do. Best of luck to you, friend!
ReplyDeleteThank you! I didn't realize there was a way to be friends with people. I look into it :) It is certainly becoming a great tool for me and I am finding it to be easier than Weight Watchers.
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